Remembering My Friend Nane

by Beverly Mach Geller

Her hands transformed flour, water, butter, eggs
into want more crepes, croissants

gathered lilacs, lilies, roses from the garden
to dress each room

When she planted, weeded, her broad-brimmed hat
guarded against freckles on her fair skin

At her stop the car request
she bent to pick goldenrod, cattails, ferns

Nane imitated whistles of birds
cavorting at the feeder

On frosty nights, she tucked in her children
with blankets up to the chin

 With her husband, she played their favorite duet, Schubert’s Piano Sonata,
regaled friends with her rendition of Ms. Otis Regrets

 With a grin, the elegant lady tossed
spitless spitballs at her husband

We shared the beauty of autumn leaves in the Berkshires,
cold stone crabs, bayside, in Florida’s Keys

heard rain pounding on our sheltering tin roof
above orange trees in Puerto Rico’s mountains

felt a caress from the surf’s foam—
white-patterned lace on the brown sand

I still see her Delft-blue eyes smiling, speaking welcome at her door—
inside, a table laden with quiche, Brie, plum tarts, absinthe

I still see her bringing honey cake, Swiss chocolate to us
giving coins to every street performer, every beggar

My friend Nane so like Rachel
biblical ayshes chayil

who reaches out her hand to the needy…
words of kindness are on her tongue…

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ayshes chayil
: From King Solomon’s song of praise to the ideal woman.

 

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Author Bio:

Beverly Mach Geller, a graduate of Syracuse University School of Nursing, earned a BA in English from Rutgers University and an MA from The College of New Jersey. Her poems, several of which won awards, have been published in many literary journals.

Kelsey Review 35.1

Fall 2016

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Dust

by Vida Chu

Coarse, uneven grained and chalky grey
scooped from the ceramic jar
scattered by his daughters’ hands
under the azaleas,
watered with a garden hose
patted down into the earth
all traces of his ninety-four years
vanished.

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Author Bio:

Vida Chu has lived in Princeton for fifty years. Her poems have appeared in US 1 Worksheets, Princeton Arts Review, Kelsey Review, The Literary Review and The Princeton Magazine. A book of poems, The Fragrant Harbor, was published by Aldrich Press in 2014. Her children stories appear in Cricket Magazine and Fire and Wings.

The Wake

by Katie Zurich

The funeral home smells like cheap perfume, and the crowd is so thick that I’m certain my air quality is severely jeopardized. My two older brothers stand next to my father, one on each side, operating as his guards. I stand them behind them, glad to be hidden from the unending line of those who came to pay their respects.

My mother looks beautiful. We decided to dress her in the bright blue dress she wore to my brother Josh’s wedding. Her hair is curled and her signature pale pink lipstick has been perfectly applied. While I normally loathe open caskets, it was mom’s request to be laid out and presented to the world one last time. “Let people see me. It helps with the goodbye,” she had told my father.

I wanted her to be wrong about this, but per usual she’s right. Whenever I feel a tear or tremble I look toward her and I find  instant strength and solace. It’s odd to be at her wake. I imagined it differently. I guess in true Mom fashion I pictured a dirty martini, chocolate, and a few songs from The Drifters. But, here we are in Spring Lake, New Jersey, bidding farewell to Dotty Matthews, beloved wife, mother, grandmother, and friend. “Katherine, stop hiding and come stand next to us,” my father hisses. Reluctantly, I step forward, grabbing the arm of my brother Michael.

At Michael’s 10th birthday party he issued a statement to the family that “Mikey” was no longer an acceptable nickname. As a consolation prize he offered us “Mike,” but my mother never recovered from this event, especially because she had given him his nickname. However, for the most part, mom always abided by our requests and we lived with “Mike” until his 21st birthday. It was on this occasion he announced a more formal name, Michael, as well introduced us to his boyfriend, John. I’ll never forget dad’s face, Josh’s inappropriate laughter, and my mother’s tears. I chugged cheap wine while no one was watching. Michael was so nervous, but he had no reason to be. He was accepted and loved beyond measure.

“Kat, stop fidgeting.” Michael always bossed me around and today was no different.

“I can’t help it. I lost patience for this about two seconds after it began. I’m 34 years old, but at least a dozen of mom’s book club members continue to pinch my cheeks.

Josh whispers into my ear, “You think the book club is bad? Wait until the Ladies Auxiliary Committee arrives. Last summer Mrs. Donovan grabbed my ass at mom’s Labor Day party, I’m sure of it.”

Michael and I stifle our laughter just as my Aunt Gennie makes her way toward us. My father groans, loudly, at the very sight of her. “There’s not enough scotch in the world to stomach what’s about to come out of her mouth.” Dad says the words painfully, as if she’s already committed a crime of conversation.

“Oh Lou, Josh, Michael, Kat! I can’t believe she’s gone. She was so beautiful, and, she was wonderful because…” Her voice momentarily trailed. I braced myself for what would come next. “What in the hell is she wearing? For God’s sake Lou, blue? Her favorite color was green! I knew I should have come over yesterday.” Aunt Gennie’s words are not as offensive as her volume. Everyone looks up at us, and once again, I’m crimson from the glares of well-wishers.

“For Christ’s sake Gennie! Don’t start with this nonsense, please!” The desperation in my father’s voice is palpable, but per usual Aunt Gennie is too self-absorbed to notice.

“My only sister, displayed in a recycled outfit. And blue?”

“She’s not a damn mannequin, Gennie, so kindly refrain from speaking about her like one.” My father’s tone has changed. It went from a plea-like state to punishing.

Aunt Gennie stops, looks at him, and meekly utters “of course.” Michael escorts Aunt Gennie to the casket, while Josh steps beside me.

“Carol and I bet she’d say something within a minute of her entrance. I bet she’d focus on the makeup, but Carol called wardrobe.” Carol is Josh’s wife, and the sister I never had. She joined our family eight years ago, and gave mom and dad their greatest thrill, grandchildren. For this, and for many other reasons, we call her “the perfect one.” I catch Carol’s eye and she winks at me. Carol lost her mother a few years ago, and I know she’ll act as a guide in the months to come. Carol is seated next to John, Michael’s husband. While Michael is serious, John is not. For this reason, he and Josh get along famously. I love John for loving Michael, but most recently, I love him for his hugs. It was John who was with me when I received the call that mom had passed. We had taken a break at the hospital and sought refuge from hospital cafeteria food at a nearby coffee shop. I remember dropping the phone, and feeling my knees buckle, but I also remember John catching me. Up until an hour before the wake started, he had barely let go of my hand.

“That woman has driven me crazy since the day I married your mother.” Dad loves a good Aunt Gennie rant, and he seems intent on another one.

Michael rejoins us and per usual, softens the mood. “Dad, she’s mom’s sister and her closest confidant. Giver her a break, just for today.” Dad rolls his eyes at Michael’s request, but abides.

The four of us stand by mom’s side for another hour. I hold myself together the entire time, but as the last visitor leaves I find myself unable to fight back the tears. Sadness floods over me and despite being surrounded by my family, I feel very alone.

I can hear her voice as I close my eyes. “Kat, it’s almost done. You’ve been patient. Get a glass of wine, take off your heels, and toast to me.” Mom has been the voice in my head for years. I look around. The room is almost empty. The wake is over. I glance at her lifeless body and take a deep breath. I pull up a chair and place it next to her coffin. I’ll sit beside her for a little while longer. After all, she’d do the same for me.

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Author Bio:

A native Buffalonian, Katie Zurich is proud of her roots but loves that her branches extend into the Garden State. She is a social media fanatic and lover of modern British literature. She loves to write short stories and finds joy and inspiration with her husband and daughter in Robbinsville, NJ.

 

Sinjin’s Crossing

by Tim Waldron

Sinjin Morann sat on the New Jersey bank of the Delaware River late into the evening and periodically pulled whiskey from his flask. Hundreds of dribbling creeks in the Catskills and upstate New York came together in Northwest New Jersey to form the moody piedmont that Sinjin loved to sit beside and contemplate. At the end of a good think the old man rose with a bit of noise. The seventy-year-old still considered himself virile, but every now and again he felt the years in his bones.

“It doesn’t look that far,” Sinjin said. He picked up a smooth river rock and threw it towards the Pennsylvania bank. He lost sight of it in the dark and the plunk of the thing was masked by the rushed water of Scudder’s falls.

Sinjin turned from the river and started his way back home. When the mood struck him, as it did this particular night, Sinjin would dress in a tri-quarter revolutionary hat, knee high riding boots, long johns, and belted sword. The locals, who lived side by side on the river road, hardly paid the sight any mind. It was common knowledge, in this area, that Sinjin Morann and George Washington were one and the same.

“St. John Morann, I’m about this far from putting you in a goddamn home.” Mary Morann, Sinjin’s wife, held her index finger and thumb a quarter of an inch apart. She was twenty-five years Sinjin’s junior and never let him forget it.

“Blow it out your ass, Mare.” Sinjin hung his hat and dropped his sword in the umbrella can. “You’re stuck with me.”

“I must have done something horrible in a past life.”

“Phahh,” Sinjin dismissed her remark with a breath and a wave. “You don’t know how good you have it.” Mary turned to the fridge and opened the door. Before she could reach in Sinjin was behind her, arms around her waist, kissing at her neck. The phone rang, causing the couple to groan in unison.

“You get it, I’ll be upstairs.” Mary gave Sinjin a mischievous wink then started to walk away. Sinjin couldn’t let her go without one more squeeze. He pulled her back into his arms and copped a feel. “Sinjin!”

“Sorry, honey.” He gave her one last kiss before letting her go. Sinjin reached for the phone and caught sight of a note pinned on the cork board. He had to make an appearance at the Washington’s Crossing Reenactment Society next week, an annoying obligation he’d been trying to ignore. “Sherwood Forest, Robin speaking,” Sinjin said into the receiver.

“Daddy, I’m getting married!” The voice bubbled.

“Who is this?” Sinjin asked.

“Daddy, stop it, get mom.”

“Mare, it’s your daughter,” Sinjin yelled. “She’s gotten knocked up and has been forced to marry.” Mare got on the line, immediately demanding that he shush and hang-up the phone. Sinjin bopped out the front door and started a jig on the front porch. He didn’t immediately recall what performance he learned the celebratory dance for, but he still had it down pat.

 

Even with the historical reenactment society meeting looming over his head, Sinjin held himself in good spirits. His daughter, Sarah, who moved to Colorado the year before would be home tomorrow. He was busting to see her. Sinjin was equally excited to meet his future son-in-law and test the boy’s mettle.

“How do I look?” Sinjin spun around and gave Mary an eyeful of a well-dressed man.

“I hate that suit.”

“You’re certifiable, Larry Hagman gave me this suit and it still fits.” Sinjin brushed a bit of lint from the sleeve and then glanced at himself in the mirror. What a sight, he thought, never had there been a smarter outfit. The suit was made of the finest Mohair, dyed with white, orange, black, and red checkered squares. “Not a lot of men can fit into a suit they owned thirty years before.”

“It’s just so,” Mary seemed to lose her train of thought while staring into the pattern of the suit. Her face went blank, then sour. She shook her head and pinched the bridge of her nose.

“It’s so what? Out with it Mare, I’m not going to live forever.”

“It’s just so busy,” she told him.

“Where’s my Cobra head cane?” Sinjin asked. Mary rolled her eyes in response. She picked her purse off the floor and pulled out a cigarette.

“Ah, there it is,” Sinjin spotted the ivory fanged head by the dresser. Mary fished through her purse for matches. Before finding her light Sinjin had the Cobra head by her cigarette and pushed a button on the shaft to trigger a small flame from the snake’s mouth.

 

“Take a seat, please.” The meeting crawled to order in the basement of Our Lady of Good Council Church with the clack of Judge Randolph Rahl’s gavel. “We have a lot to get through and a short amount of time.”  The judge, a short man, sturdily built, wore his dress robes at every meeting. Sinjin never much cared for Rahl’s obsession with standing on ceremony.

Judge Rahl had erected a bureaucracy within the Washington’s Crossing Society that frustrated many of the members. The rules were introduced as a way to give the society a longevity that would continue on after its charter members retired. Since the Judge was the only one interested in the tedious task of writing up a charter, he became the head officer of the society. At first Sinjin was pleased with the idea, he wasn’t going to do this forever. It was nice to know that the crossing would continue on and become part of his legacy.

“Let’s get this over with Randy,” Sinjin called out. Judge Rahl knocked his gavel and gave Sinjin a stern look. Sinjin replied to the judge by clacking the Cobra head cane against the basement floor and gave the judge his best set of bug eyes.

“I call the fourth official meeting of the Washington’s crossing historical reenactment society to order.” The judge paused for a spattering of applause. He knocked his gavel in quick succession after indulging them.

“Is there any old business?” The judge’s voice, authoritative, echoed through the chamber. “Good, then I’ll get right to it.” He stood up from his chair and opened a briefcase on the card table that served as his bench. “I have here the backbone of the Washington’s Crossing Historical Reenactment society.” Rahl took out a piece of parchment and held it up for all to view. “This is the document that maps the way for future members and will allow our vision to continue.”

“You mean my vision,” Sinjin added. The judge’s gavel came down in quick succession. Sinjin began to competitively bang his Cobra head in response. The two escalated their racket until Mary elbowed Sinjin in the shoulder and ended the clacking crescendo.

“Mr. Morann, we are all aware that you started the annual reenactment thirty years ago, but I believe the crossing is General Washington’s vision and no one else’s.”

“Randy, as usual you’ve gotten it wrong.” Sinjin stood up from his chair and raised his arms with the Cobra head in hand. Mary, having some idea of what was to come, sank down in her chair. “It was my goddamn idea to start these reenactments and I’ve been George Washington every goddamn year for the last thirty goddamn years. The only reason you are not sitting in this basement alone, banging your goddamn pud with that goddamn gavel, is because of me and my goddamn vision.” Sinjin’s tirade was punctuated with brief bit of applause that died out before the judge even had a chance to bang his gavel.

“Okay?” the Judge asked. “Anything else to add? Good. Before this meeting meanders any further I will come to the point. Section 4 of article 14 in the Washington’s Crossing Historical Reenactment Society Constitution states: ‘No man or woman will be allowed to take a space on a boat if there is an inherent health risk.’”

“What are you up to Rahls?” Sinjin stamped his cane in defiance.

“I am sorry, Sinjin,” the judge said. “But I believe that, at your age, there exists a very real possibility that you would be at risk during these crossings. And God forbid we ever tipped over. Even with the rescue boats on hand, he’d be in terrible danger. “

“I won’t stand for this and neither will the rest of the Society.” Sinjin was on his feet. The judge put his gavel down on the card table and took a seat for the first time. “Your rules are hokum and everyone knows it.”

“My rules are hokum?” the judge asked.

“Hogwash.”

“I’m afraid the rules are perfectly legitimate,” the judge responded.

“Hooey,” Sinjin called out. He raised his hands in the air, like a conductor, attempting to galvanize the crowd, who sat half listening behind him.

“I’m sorry, Sinjin,” the judge added. “I know this isn’t easy to hear.”

“Baloney,” Sinjin sounded off.

“I’m afraid these safety ordinances are completely necessary,” the judge said. “If it wasn’t for the new regulations you would have floated away two years ago.” Sinjin shut his mouth and returned to his seat. He hated to think about the day the river beat him. There had been crossings that were canceled due to extreme weather. Sinjin felt no shame about them. But one year the river was very high, there had been a lot of snow up north, followed by an unusual warm spell. The snow melted and nearly caused the river to flood. The water was moving very fast, but it was so warm that Sinjin launched anyway. The boat was swept away with the current and had to be towed in by one of the Delaware River Rescue boats. It was a defeat that always gnawed at him.

“Rules are rules, Sinjin. It’s time to step down.”

“That piece of cat skin doesn’t mean a goddamn.”

“I’m afraid it does, Sinjin. It was notarized and is legally recognized as a binding contract with Mercer County’s Department of Park services.”

“So what?”

“So, if we are in breach of this document the Park Service will not issue us the proper permits needed to perform the reenactment. We will be barred from putting our boats in the water.”

“You son of a gun, you’ve been cooking this up all along.” Sinjin held the cobra head cane up and pointed the fanged mouth toward the judge. “I’m a goddamn bull. You can’t tell me I can’t cross that river come December. I am an ox. Mare, how long did I go the other night?”

“Sinjin!” Mary’s face went red.

“You tell’em honey, you tell them how long I went.”

“Sinjin, sit down, now!”

“Forty-five minutes, Judge. When’s the last time you went forty five minutes?” The gavel came down again, louder and faster, with an anger to it. “Hell, when’s the last time you had enough salt to get your soldier in the boat? Where’s your wife? I’ll ask her myself.”

“I think that’s enough,” the judge added. “There’s nothing left to debate. This crossing will not take place this year with Sinjin playing the role of George Washington.”

“This is hooey, who do you think you will get to replace me?” Sinjin asked.

“Well according to the constitution, the next George Washington will be the member who holds the highest office within the Historical Reenactment Society.”

“Would that be you?”

“I believe it would be, Sinjin.” The judge fought his smile, but in the end it couldn’t be masked. “If any of you have a problem with this and wish to resign I understand. But I want to make this explicitly clear. No boat will cross this Christmas carrying St. John Morann.”

Sinjin was fuming mad. He took his cobra headed cane and broke it across his knee. The pieces of his cane slid across the floor as he stormed out of the meeting.

 

Sinjin awoke in a sour mood. Everywhere his eyes landed sat reminders of his life as George Washington. His house, an old carriage barn built in 1765, had provided the first President with a place to sleep on one cold, snowy, war-torn night. The first thing he saw every morning was the mural he had painted on the bedroom wall. It was his take on the famous Emanuel Gottlieb Leutze portrait of the crossing. It depicted Sinjin as George Washington and the boat was occupied with many of the actors and artist that had worked for him over the years.  Years ago, for much of his life, Sinjin sat as director of the Lambertville Music Circus. The reenactment started as a publicity stunt on behalf of the Circus. Sinjin’s outdoor theater, under the big top, was regarded by some in the theater industry as a great innovation. By its own nature, the circus could only run in warm weather and it was not mobile. In order to keep the Music Circus in the press throughout the winter, Sinjin started to reenact the Crossing. Over the years the publicity stunt came to the forefront of his endeavors and eventually eclipsed the Music Circus in notoriety.

Sinjin had always loved the crossing, he also loved the rich history of his home, but his love soured as the judge came to mind. The walls of his house held dozens of portraits commemorating different revolutionary war battles in the area. He passed the battle of Princeton on his way to the john and scoffed at it. General Mercer was lucky, he thought, killed in battle, a hero’s death. Downstairs, the muskets that hung over the fireplace gave Sinjin another pain in his pride.

“We’re selling this craphole,” Sinjin announced to Mary. She poured pancake batter onto the griddle as he fixed a cup of coffee.

“If we’re selling I’m going to put you in a home and run off with the money.”

“Not in the mood Mare,” Sinjin said, taking a seat at the kitchen table.  “My kingdom is in ruins.”

“It’s not the end of the world.”

“It’s the end of my world.” A car horn honked in quick succession, a sure sign of Sarah’s return.

“Don’t be so dramatic,” Mary said.

“I’m an actor,” Sinjin replied. He locked eyes with Mary and held her gaze. A pause lingered between them, his eyes glazed over with water. “Or at least I used to be.”

“You’ve still got it, babe.” Mary walked over to Sinjin, squeezed his shoulder, and kissed his forehead.

“I’m on the back nine, Mare,” Sinjin exhaled noisily through his nose. “I can admit that much, but I can’t take someone getting over on me. It needs to be on my terms, not Rahl’s.”

“You old bull.” Mary rubbed her hand up and down Sinjin’s back. “You’ve got nothing to prove. “

The front door flew open with a gust of cool air and the whirling calamity that was Sinjin’s daughter entered. She blew into the house with all the noise and commotion of a volcanic eruption.

“Daddy,” Sarah dropped herself in her father’s lap and gave him a kiss then moved on to her mother.

“Mommy,” she cooed before giving Mary a hug. “Everyone, this is Jack, isn’t he cute?” In the door way, stood a man obstructed by a wall of travel luggage and duty free shopping bags. “Well, say hello Jack, don’t be rude.”

“Hello all, sorry for being a bit standoffish, if I could just put these bags somewhere I’ll give everyone a proper hello.” Jack strained to keep everything from crashing to the ground.

“He’s a goddamn red coat,” Sinjin barked.

“Daddy.”

“I’m George Washington for Christ’s sake. I can’t have a red coat in the family.”

“Sorry to interrupt,” Jack stuttered a bit, suddenly a bit ashamed of his British accent. “But I’m either going to put this luggage down or its going to put me down.”

“I can’t understand a goddamn word this kid is saying.”

“Sinjin, help him with the bags,” Mary instructed. “I have the guest room all set up, you and Jack should have everything you need. And don’t mind your father, he just lost his job as George Washington.”

“Mare, that’s none of the Limey’s business,” he scolded. Sinjin began taking bags, being as unpleasant about it as he could muster.

“Thanks ever so much.”

“What? Don’t you speak English?” Sinjin asked.

“He said thank you Daddy, me and mom understand him.” Jack smiled politely as Sinjin grumbled something that sounded vaguely obscene, on his way upstairs.

 

Christmas, as it tended to do, took its sweet time coming around; then darted to the finish line before anyone felt ready for it. The clack of the judge’s gavel beat in Sinjin’s head and fired his lust for vengeance. While Sinjin’s public face was gracious in defeat his private thoughts called for blood. He had been secretly meeting with former members of the Washington’s Crossing Reenactment Society and formulating a plan to bring the judge to his knees.

“Howdy, partner,” Jack announced his presence from Sinjin’s bedroom door. “Could I have a word with ya’ll?” Sinjin forced Jack to watch a countless number of westerns in order mimic an accent that Sinjin claimed to understand. Although the impression was way off the mark and would often be abandoned in mid conversation, Sinjin now maintained he could understand the young man.

“Yes, come on in.” Sinjin had his Colonial army dress laid out on the bed, freshly dry cleaned and ready for the Christmas morning raid. “What’ve you got there?”

“It’s an early Christmas gift, sir.”

“Give it here,” Sinjin grabbed the long thin box greedily from Jack’s arms. “It’s about time you bought me something, Limey. You know, when you stay at some ones house, it’s just good manners.”

“Yes, well, hope you like it.”

“Oh, my dear boy.” Sinjin looked into the box with pure reverence. “How and the hell did you pull this off?”  He reached in and pulled the cobra head cane out, good as new.

“Mary told me what happened, so I went up to the church to see if maybe I could retrieve it from the lost and found.”

“Genius, boy, pure genius.” Sinjin inspected the piece closely. He put his finger on the lighter button then looked over to Jack with doe eyes.

“Go on, give it a try,” Jack instructed, “Cowboy up and all that.”

“Would you look at that?” Sinjin said with great glee as the fire emanated from the cobra’s brass fanged mouth, “Makes me want to take up smoking.”

“Glad you like it, I had them make the shaft from an Irish Shillelagh. You won’t be breaking this one over your knee.”

“Limey, this is a great gift.” Sinjin walked to Jack and gave him a firm hug. “I’d like you to be on the boat tomorrow. I could use your help in waging bloody war against the Judge.”

“It’d be an honor, sir.”

“What?” Sinjin barked. “I didn’t catch that.”

“YeeHa, sir,” Jack said plainly.

“Very good,” Sinjin nodded. “Now make yourself scarce.”

Early Christmas morning Sinjin met with his crew in the picnic area of Washington’s Crossing Park. The men stood huddled around a smoldering grill at nine in the morning, clad in matching tan trench coats.  The gang consisted of Brian Thomas and Gary David both long time members of Sinjin’s crew. Plus, Peter Rice and Jimmy Watkins who were part of the Delaware Water Rescue crew who saved Sinjin years earlier.  Sinjin had forged a bond with the two heroes. Jack rounded out Sinjin’s revolutionary pack.

The renegade group had picked a spot a half mile upstream from the judge’s launch. From this point the current would carry them fast and they could cut off the judge’s boat before it hit the New Jersey bank. Since the judge’s gang had to launch and land from the same two points that the General charted back in 1776, Sinjin was given the tactical advantage.

“Alright boys, this is it, this is the day we have been training for. We all have different reasons for being here and not all of them are very good. But that doesn’t mean we can’t put our hearts into this. That worm of a judge pulled the rug out from under us and it’s time he got what was coming to him. Now I’m not going to lie to you, this is dangerous, the crowd may turn on us, and the water is almost freezing today.  But I don’t want you to think about that, I want you to stare death in the face and laugh. These are the times that try men’s soul… ”

“Sinjin, we know this part, we hear it every year.”

“I was creating a mood, Brian.” Sinjin unbuttoned his overcoat to reveal his smartly cleaned George Washington dress costume. “But, you know, let’s just put the goddamn boat in the water.”

“Everybody has a costume,” Jack said. “I feel kind of out of place.”

“Don’t worry, don’t worry.” Sinjin walked over to his car and pulled a garment bag from the back seat. “I didn’t forget about you.”

“Thank you, sir.” Jack cocked wrinkled his brow and frowned once Sinjin revealed the costume. It was not authentic Colonial garb. It was a pirate costume and a pretty cheap one at that. “Is this a joke?”

“Of course not.” Sinjin put his arm around Jack. “We’re working with what we’ve got.”

“I can’t wear this,” Jack protested.

“Put it on,” Sinjin insisted.

“No, I won’t, I can’t”

“Rent’s due, put it on.” Sinjin held the costume in Jack’s face until he reluctantly accepted the outfit. Once on, the costume was far from dazzling: a big black hat with a skull and cross bones, knee high red and white striped socks, black pants tied off at the knee, a ruffled white shirt and an eye patch.

“You look great,” Sinjin said. “I won’t make you wear the parrot, but the paint on mustache is non-negotiable.”

“I look like a fool.”

“Listen kid, when I started this thing thirty years ago all I had was a canoe, some friends in funny looking costumes, and a fifth of Jack. Don’t let the naysayers drag you down.”

“They’re getting ready to launch the boat,” Peter called out.

“Let’s move,” Sinjin raised his cobra head cane into the air and circled over his head to initiate the charge. Brian pulled the tarp back, revealing a smart-looking Delaware River Water and Rescue boat.

“Someone give me a hand.” Sinjin struggled with a large canvas sack, filled with heavy steel chains.

“Maybe we’re going a little overboard here?” Jack asked.

“Grab the other bag and those anchors,” Sinjin instructed. “We’re all in this together, thick as thieves we are.” The rest of the men aided in the launch of the river rescue boat. There was no fooling around from here on out. “This is war, gentlemen, and I’m fixin’ to win.”

The Water Rescue Boat was a bit of anachronism, but it moved well in the water.  The boat also had had a few centuries of design improvements on the long boats used by the judge. Sinjin found the ends of each steel chain and locked them to separate anchors. He gave the chains a tug, then pulled the pad locks and a bullhorn out of the bag. He took a moment for himself, signed the three crosses of Saint Mathew and let out a deep breath. The renegades were out on the river and in plain view. Sinjin looked over to the people standing on Washington’s crossing bridge. They had already taken notice and were pointing.

“Alright boys, time to give the judge the high hard one.” Sinjin stood up, placed his foot on the bow, and assumed the George Washington stance. Sinjin cleared his throat and flipped the bullhorn on, it hummed in his hand and he smiled.

“Attention patriots,” Sinjin’s stage voice boomed and elicited great cheer from the onlookers. “It is I, St. John Morann, the real George Washington.” Sinjin rocked back a bit as the rescue boat picked up speed. The men had their backs in it. “I’m here to do battle against the tyrant that his taken my rightful place at the bow of that longboat. To prove my mettle, we aim to beat the usurper to the New Jersey bank and humiliate his efforts.” The crowd ate up Sinjin’s showmanship, laughs and applause carried over the river water.

“I think it’s safe to say we’re the crowd favorite,” Gary said as he exhaled.

“Let’s not disappoint.” Sinjin took the cobra head cane and pointed to the judge, then ran his finger across his throat.  Sinjin’s boat closed in on the judge’s position, but the judge’s boat moved well in the water, he had skilled rowers and a larger crew.

“I’ll have you thrown in jail, Morann,” the judge screamed. “I order you to back down and let me complete this crossing.”

“In the spirit of our revolutionary fathers I do not recognize your authority. Up yours, Rahly,” Sinjin called through the bullhorn. The crowd continued to eat up Sinjin’s hammy showmanship. “Limey, take a look at the bridge.” Mary and Sarah had unfurled a sheet that read ‘Go Get ’em’.

“Listen up, men, this is going to happen fast and it’s going to be messy. Prepare yourself. Before we all get knocked into the freezing waters know this, you’ve done an old man a great service.” The rescue boat slammed into the judge’s long boat with enough force to shift the bow down river. The two boats floated side by side, locked in battle.

“Get to it, Jack,” Sinjin ordered, the pirate moved to action. He grabbed one end of the heavy steal chain and threaded it through the rowing oars on the long boat. Once the chain was padlocked Peter dumped an anchor over and sucked the oars from the long boat and down under the cold Delaware water.

“My hand,” one of the judge’s men screamed.

“Let me see,” another rower insisted. The others circled around their team mate to inspect his condition.

“Don’t let them take the port oars,” the judge growled. His fiercest call had little effect on the men. The hired ringers could move the boat better than Sinjin’s team, but they had no stake in this fight. Sinjin hooked his cane into the stern safety latch and pulled, the long boat began to spin. The river’s current did much of the work. Jack looped the chain through the starboard oars.

“Help me, for god’s sake. They’re trying to set us adrift.” The judge drew his sword and stepped past the crew.  He was within striking range of Jack.

“Get away from my boat,” the judge growled. He swung his sword at Jack’s arm. Before the blade made contact its momentum was stopped by the cobra headed cane of Sinjin Morann.

“Are you out of your mind?” Sinjin asked. “Compose yourself.” Sinjin knocked the sword out of Rahl’s hand. He jabbed the cobra head into the judge’s gut. The quick poke took Rahl’s air and forced him down onto one knee. Peter dropped the second anchor into the water and sunk the starboard oars.

“Paddle for shore.” Sinjin stretched his arm out and pointed the way with his cobra headed cane. “The day is mine, Rahley. You can play hide and go fuck yourself all the way down river.”

The long boat drifted down the Delaware River while the judge made a feeble attempt to paddle the boat with his arms. Rescue boats launched from the New Jersey and Pennsylvania banks. The band kicked up, as was the custom when George Washington landed. Sinjin and his boat mates raised their arms in victory. “I am an ox,” Sinjin called over the bullhorn. “A goddamn bull, don’t any of you forget it.” He saw Mary and Sarah moving through the crowd.  Sinjin jumped out of the boat and met them amongst the cheering crowd.

“My girls,” Sinjin called with his arms open. He embraced Mary and Sarah and groaned happily as he firmed up his grip on them. Sinjin had landed on that shore as General Washington many times in his life, but this was destined to be his greatest and his last. The battle had been won and the war had come to an end; all on his own terms. The old man’s eyes went glassy. He kissed each of his girls on the forehead, then let them go.

“Come here, boy.” Sinjin waved Jack over. “Next year, you’ll be family, you understand?”

“Yes, sir.” Jack nodded.

“You did good out there, boy.” Sinjin hooked an arm around his future son-in-law. “I want you in the boat next year. I want you to keep George in the family.”

“I don’t know, sir.” Jack took a step away from Sinjin. “I’m not sure this is exactly my cup of tea.”

“Excellent,” Sinjin said and slapped Jack on the shoulder. “Your training will begin in the new year.”

“Sinjin,” Jack put a hand on Sinjin’s shoulder. “I’m not doing it.”

“George Washington is dead,” he said and took Jack’s hand in his.

“I’m sorry, Sinjin, it’s just not for me.”

“Long live the new George Washington.” Sinjin raised Jack’s hand in the air as he yelled his announcement to the crowd.  While only two or three people actually heard Sinjin, their cheer begot their neighbors cheer, and from there the applause of the crowd rose like a swelling wave.  Sinjin’s eyes dried as he forcefully held Jack’s reluctant hand high in the air. A new battle stirred in him.

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Author Bio:

Tim Waldron is currently an online fiction editor of The Literary Review. His short-story collection World Takes is published by Word Riot Press. His work has appeared in Bull Magazine, Vol. 1 Brooklyn, The Lit Pub, The Literary Review, The McNeese Review, The Serving House Book of Infidelity, Mud Luscious Press, Dogzplot, Necessary Fiction, Sententia, Monkeybicycle, Atticus Review, and What’s Your Exit? He received his MFA from Fairleigh Dickinson University where he was the winner of the 2012 Senior Graduate Assistantship. He lives in Lawrence Twp. and is an adjunct with MCCC.

Elegy for My Son, Nine Years Later

by Wanda S. Praisner

I keep my eyes from the date
on the board: September 15th
look instead to the students,
my lesson plans. After the class sings
the national anthem, I remind them
it’s the anniversary
of Francis Scott Key penning his poem.

I join in What’s New—tell
of white cabbage butterflies I’d seen
among fuchsia gomphrena blooms;
a silver-spotted skipper
sampling sweetness with its feet,

uncoiling, thrusting proboscis in
to draw the liquid out;
and yellow jackets, stirred by the drought,
circling in search of moisture,
like the flies at Aswan Airport

I once swatted, some six hundred
with a folded paper bag.
I say I’ll bring in the straw switch
I used in the desert
to keep them from my perspired face.

After class, at the cemetery,
I place roses in a vase, add water.
Yellow jackets near and I remember
I’d forgotten to mention
how the silver-spotted skipper flew,
its right wing in tatters,
more than half of it gone.

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Author Bio:

Wanda S. Praisner, a recipient of fellowships from the NJ State Council on the Arts,the Dodge Foundation, the Fine Arts Work Center, and VCCA, has work in Atlanta Review, Lullwater Review, Prairie Schooner and elsewhere. Latest books are: Where the Dead Are (CKP, 2013) and Sometimes When Something Is Singing (Antrim House, 2014).She is a poet in residence for the NJ State Council on the Arts.

 

From the Editor

All good things transform. The Kelsey Review, which has been publishing the works of Mercer County-area residents for over 30 years, is also transforming. If you are reading this, you are witnessing our transformation into a quarterly online literary journal with issues appearing Fall, Winter, Spring, and Summer. This is also my first issue as sole editor of Kelsey Review, and I am humbled and grateful to be able to publish the work of so many dedicated, passionate area artists. Many thanks to Kelsey’s previous editor, Ed Carmien, for showing me the ropes. Thank you also to long-time editorial board volunteers Roberta Clipper, Luray Gross, and Ellen Jacko, who have welcomed me into the fold.

Speaking of former editor Ed Carmien, did you know that he is also a talented author? One of the highlights of this issue is his story, “The Beautiful Accident,” which follows a young woman named Hana in her dogged pursuit of building a flying machine. The story moves beyond science fiction to touch on family, growing up, and one of the crucial characteristics of humanity: the ability to see beyond our ordinary world and do the work to make dreams come to fruition, which, in essence, is what writers and artists do every day.

Among our featured fiction in the Fall issue, we have another story that uses fantasy elements to expose truths about the vicissitudes of growing up, “Young Brown Man and the Laundromat Werewolf” by Mark Galarrita, who is new to our (virtual) pages. If the title alone doesn’t make you want to read it, I can assure you there is humor and heart to be found there. Annabelle Kim’s story “Taste & Odor” also contains elements of humor, but quite a bit of darkness as well. Finally, Daniel Picker’s nostalgic piece “That Fall” seemed to fit our Fall issue perfectly.

Much of the poetry to be found in our Fall issue hints at nostalgia as well, or at least grapples with the past. Carolina Morales, who has published with us throughout the years, is back again with two poems: “Self-Portrait, Pregnant, NYC 1945” and “Daguerreotype.” Donald Lasko, in his poem “Saying Goodbye,” shares his thoughts on the passing of famed poet Galway Kinnell. We are also lucky to have a poem entitled “Two Feet In, Six Feet Under” from Lois Marie Harrod, another talented area writer whose work has been published in our journal (and in countless other venues) for many years now. Finally, a new voice is added to our poetry mix, that of Patrick Walsh in his poem “Mercenaire,” a poem full of beautiful language which reminds this reader a bit of Gerard Manley Hopkins.

We can’t forget, of course, about our nonfiction and our art. While these categories have historically not received as many submissions, we were lucky to find a few gems for this issue. Luz Horta’s “They Are Taking Him Away” is a suspenseful piece written with the full emotion of a mother watching her child grow up, while Dorothy Kohrherr, in her piece “Home,” writes from the perspective of a child growing up in the 1950s, watching as her “mother ironed her way through the 1953 World Series.” Our artwork this issue is in the form of a photograph, an evocative, ominous image of Diamond Head State Monument in Hawaii rendered by talented photographer Jessie Liang.

Our Fall issue, like the season itself, is full of color, of darkness and light, of the past colliding with the present and transforming into the future. As the Kelsey Review continues to transform, I promise we won’t forget about our past or our “present”—our gift—you, dear readers. Thank you for reading, and enjoy.

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Editor

 

From the President

Dr. Wang Kelsey

MCCC is delighted to share with you the work of many local writers and artists in the Kelsey Review. This year marks Kelsey Review’s 35th issue, and it is a pleasure to see how this journal continues to serve the community by sharing the work of talented individuals who live and work in the larger Mercer County area. This literary journal is just one of the many ways the College shares the cultural wealth of our area.

Mercer County Community College directly serves thousands of county residents, and indirectly tens of thousands through its many ties to the community. WWFM broadcasts quality programming to the county and even the world through the internet. Kelsey Theater stages a wide range of drama for county audiences, who also have access to the college’s Art Gallery. Our nationally-ranked MCCC athletic teams offer chances to root for stellar local athletes. See more about the college and Mercer County at www.mccc.edu.

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The Kelsey Review is distributed in part through the Mercer County public library system and funded by Mercer County Community College. Each edition of the Review presents professional-quality poems, fiction, non-fiction and art that provokes thought and with luck, inspiration. Enjoy what you find here.

Sincerely,

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Jianping Wang, Ed.D.
President
Mercer County Community College

 

Home

by Dorothy K. Kohrherr

My mother ironed her way through six games of the 1953 World Series. Mel Allen was ever present in our living room, although he never sat on the couch, had a beer with my Dad, or stayed for dinner. Billy Martin’s three run triple in the first game match up between the New York Yankees and Brooklyn Dodgers was not met with wild cheering, but the quiet rhythm of my mother extending her arms to lift and pull the linen tablecloth up and over the wooden ironing board. Yogi Berra’s home run on the Philco’s 20-inch screen, reflected an image of my mother running the iron back and forth across my father’s crisply starched shirt, creating order out of the chaos of wrinkled cotton. She expertly turned the shirt almost inside out to iron under the collar and yoke, moved onto the cuffs and sleeves, and finished with the back of the shirt and then the fronts. Her domain was not Yankee stadium or Ebbets Field, but 19 Jefferson Avenue, New Brunswick, New Jersey. The house, strong and sturdy, rested on a 50’ x 100’ plot of land in the sixth ward, the Irish section of town. The three bedroom, one bath up, with a living room, dining room, kitchen down, was built in 1940, and purchased by Robert (Bob) and Madeline Kane in January 1942 for $7200.

Jefferson Avenue was my neighborhood growing up. A small town within a city. People knew who you were. You knew who you were. I was Bob and Madeline’s daughter. The second child sandwiched between two brothers. A sister came later. I could walk the neighborhood to visit cousins and if out of line sent home. The streetlights set boundaries in time and place.

I was seven years old in 1954. My brother, Bob was eleven, a worldly eleven. He and his friends built clubhouses in the woods and told me stories of the fox that roamed there ready to attack if I dared ventured into his “territory.” One afternoon, Bob and his friends teased me, “Nah nah nah nah yesterday we saw the fox run through the woods and he was looking for little girls.”

One of our neighbors had polio. Every Halloween dressed as ghosts and goblins kids would be ushered into her bedroom. Her head stuck out of the iron lung. Her “costume” a giant tin can that helped her breathe. We stood still as statues on the floor’s white line so she could see us reflected in the mirror over her head.

At school we practiced “Duck and Cover,” air raid drills. We were taught to crouch, shield our eyes, and scrunch into the tightest balls possible in order to protect ourselves in the event that the Soviet Union dropped an atomic bomb.

Some nights I would lay awake, hiccuping tears and watching the shadows move across the ceiling. The shapes changed from a fox stalking me, teeth bared ready to pounce, to the polio virus that could “freeze” my muscles and then the virus morphed into a giant Soviet mushroom cloud that would kill us all. When I couldn’t sleep, I would ask my Dad for a story. He told me that scary things happen, but he had been in the war to make the world safe. He would give me a hug and sometimes ask me to read him a story. I had mastered the art of changing lines and shapes into words and he wanted to know what I could do; just like when he taught me how to ride a two-wheeler. I read from the Poky Little Puppy, “Five little puppies dug a hole under the fence and went for a walk in the wide, wide world….”

From April to June that year, the Army-McCarthy hearings were taking place in our living room. The living room where we lived our lives: a fire on chilly autumn evenings, Madeline playing canasta with her card club, the kids’ table at Thanksgiving, the Christmas tree in the corner, a bookcase filled with poetry, great quotations, and the latest novels, and the chairs where Bob and Madeline read the paper, had a drink before dinner and shared the details of the day. There were the stairs my father climbed each morning with a thermos of coffee. He left it on my mother’s nightstand before he left for work. A kiss while he was on the road.

In June 1954 my mother’s ironing board was set up in front of the television. Senator Joe McCarthy was sparring with U.S. Army special counsel Joseph Welch. Amidst the hearing’s discord, my mother smoothed pillowcases. The easy rhythm of the iron’s back and forth motion pressed school clothes and Sunday dresses. McCarthy’s accusations were accompanied by smirks, tight thin-lipped looks of disgust, and at times he waved his glasses to deflect Welch’s comments as one would swat at an annoying mosquito. Even then I knew that my mother would not entertain the thought of inviting McCarthy to a neighborhood cocktail party or Fourth of July picnic. I saw a smile spread across her face as Mr. Welch responded to Senator McCarthy’s attacks on Fred Fisher, “You have done enough. Have you no sense of decency, sir?”

My father’s shirts were hung neatly over the arm of the floor lamp. The laundry basket was filled with freshly ironed sheets and pillowcases. My mother turned off the television, folded the ironing board and began to prepare dinner before my father came home. After dinner, it was the Howdy Doody show, a story and then bedtime.

In 2011 world events are much like those of 1954: the U.S. is sending aid to Japan, China’s economy is growing, and the President of Egypt was forced to resign. I like to iron. The steam warms the spring day as I turn the antique towel face down shaping the monogram; my mind wanders as I move my arm back and forth creating the rhythm of comfort and accomplishment. In many ways, I’m unlike my mother and father. I’ve lived in small apartments, in the middle of a potato field, and on a 125-acre farm raising Christmas trees and ostriches. One year I spent 200 days at Memorial Sloan Kettering when my infant daughter was diagnosed with stage III cancer. Today, I live I the “beehive,” a condo community for “active seniors.” But when anyone asks, “Where are you from?” I always answer, “19 Jefferson Avenue, New Brunswick, New Jersey.” It is the DNA of my soul, just as much as my mother’s hazel eyes and my father’s straight nose.

As I smooth the towel, I glance at an old black and white photograph. I’m standing tall on the front steps of number 19. It is my fifth birthday. I’m dressed in my new cowgirl outfit, a gift from my mother and father: boots, short skirt trimmed with fringe, a vest, neck scarf and a hat that would make Dale Evans turn green with envy. Slung around my waist was my “gun belt” with silver “six shooter.” I was ready to take on the world.

The phone rings, my daughter asks, “Mom, are you concerned about my political angst over the death of Bin Laden?”

“The truth,” I replied, “I’m ironing.”

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Author Bio:

Dorothy K. Kohrherr retired from a 35–year teaching career and presently serves as an educational consultant. Her essays have been published in Visible Ink (Memorial Sloan Kettering’s writing magazine), the NJEA Review, and the Kelsey Review. She lives in Lawrenceville, NJ after many years raising ostriches on a small farm outside of Lambertville, NJ.

They Are Taking Him Away

By Luz Nereida Horta

I sit at the counter stool in my kitchen where I can look into the dining room and see my son conversing and laughing with his friends. I pretend that I can’t hear what is being said but I am taking in every word he is saying.  I need to cherish every last word he says for soon he will no longer be my son. He is sharing childhood stories, telling his friends of things he has done to his siblings. He tells the story of how he once put a blue capsule in the shower head so that when his brother showered he would turn blue. Now I realize why my bathtub has blue stains that I can’t remove, still I laugh and cry silently – how can they take him away?

I stare at the clock, six more hours and my son will be no more. How I wish I could stop time.  Where is my husband, why isn’t he near me to comfort me? I find him outside standing, staring out into the yard; his eyes are as red as mine. He says, “I could have been a better father,” and I say, “I could have been a better mother, but would it have changed anything?” We hug each other and I walk back to my place at the kitchen. Five hours remaining. If only I could stop time. He is much too young, why does he have to leave now, why are they taking him away?

My thoughts are interrupted as a wave of laughter comes from the dining room. My son is telling yet another story. He is recalling how he had cut out small footprints that led into the hallway closet. He told my youngest son that they were the footprints of a leprechaun or monster that hid in our closet. Now I realize why his younger brother is afraid to go upstairs alone or why he dashes quickly past the closet doors.

Well, I must confess that I don’t think this disclosure is funny, considering that I had spent time and money taking my youngest son to a therapist because of these phobias he developed. We couldn’t understand his apprehensions, until now. But I can’t get upset at a time like this, there are only four hours left and we will never see our son again.

Such little time left and he is choosing to spend it with his friends. I think he is trying to cope with the situation the best he can. I can no longer cry quietly, I go into the bathroom where I start to wail, softening my sorrowful cry by placing a bathroom towel over my mouth. Suddenly, my state of mind shifts and I quickly pull the towel away from my face and stare into it. Just learning that my son is a prankster I wonder if he had done anything with towels, too. I find myself laughing and crying at the same time.

Two hours remaining, I don’t know if I can make it. It is late and some of my son’s friends have fallen asleep on the couch, on the floor, wherever they could find a spot. My husband has joined me at the kitchen and we sit in silence. I start reminiscing about the first time we brought our son into our home and the mistakes we made as first time parents. Why is it that we prefer to place guilt on ourselves at a time like this? Nothing we could have done would have changed the fact that they are taking away my son. Truth is we did the very best we could and we did raise a good son.

One hour remaining and I don’t know if I can keep it together. Darkness only makes my sorrow deepen. I cannot believe my son is still reminiscing with the few friends that are awake. He should spend his last hour with us, his mom and dad, doesn’t he realize that we are falling apart, that our pain is so deep and rooted that it will change who we are forever? What I mean is, he doesn’t understand the ramifications of what is about to happen.  He really is too young to be taken away. He is still a little boy at heart.

I can hear the minutes ticking away and silence is beginning to fill the air, no more laughter and no more talking. My son’s last moments and he walks into the kitchen. “Mom and Dad, I love you so very much and I am sorry that I have to go, you didn’t do anything wrong. You have given me a good life and I will never forget.” Forgetting his strength and size, an issue that has plagued him since he was born, he hugs me until I feel I have been deflated. He doesn’t want to let me go and I don’t want him to.

We sit in silence awaiting the foreseeable and then I hear the sounds of wheels as a car enters our gravel driveway. For sure my beating heart will wake the neighbors! Can I keep my heart in place, how can I stop this from happening? “Oh, God, please help!” The sounds of feet on my wooden porch get louder and louder as do my prayers. “Mom, its time, Mom, sorry for the things I did when I was younger, I love you.” The dreaded knock on the door and I can see the silhouette of this person who has come to take my son away.  I should hate him but he is only doing his job.

My son’s sleeping friends leap up from their sleeping positions, boys and girls alike are now teary-eyed as they give their last goodbye to the person they knew.

I can’t open the door, that job is left to my husband. Standing at attention is a tall lean Marine; my son takes his position, and salutes the Marine, who yells, “Are you ready to be a Marine?  “Sir, Yes Sir,” responds my son proudly.

I watch as my son walks away, his heavy footsteps making the old porch creak. He walks side-by-side, next to the Marine taking my son away. While I feel a moment of pride, the feeling is quickly overshadowed. I can’t stop thinking that my son is leaving, never to return as we had known him. As if reading my mind, the young Marine turns around and with conviction in his spoken words says to me, “Madam I am here to claim recruit George William Horta III – your son leaves today a boy but will return to you – a MAN.”

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Author Bio:

Luz Nereida Horta is employed as the Executive Director of a Child Care Center in Hightstown, NJ. Originally from the Bronx, NY, she has lived in the Hightstown/East Windsor Area for over 40 years. Married 43 years, she and her husband are the parents of five adult children and ten grandchildren.